hope,wish and dream

ssstttt,,,waited time i passed well,gorgeous! unexpected moment happened,hahaha...waited time, gorgeous and unexpected moment!! tht three words made me fly n SHY..i should be catagorized as good listener n good speaker,ahhaaaaa...but for this case, i swear for God that i would keep in an unknown room of heart. yup! you are right, it talks about heart, feeling and sense of loving hahahhaha..loving?! again?! how many times a week i did fall in love?! Uncounted! but..its not just like really fly of having ths feeling.Im talking about a lady who dreams right shoulder to lean on as wished to have a good man who can lead me well in Islam way.That's it, not more! and he was i guess..Just guess,dear.Im not hoping much for ths fool and stupid shadows, sounds fucking imposible to have him hahah...I know there's no word imposible for The One who made ths world, but thought he deserved to get 100% better than me, it should be a single beautiful lady for him and....its not me!

Listen, my deep heart is denying what i commented above,but my mind was reallllllyyyyy brave to make unlimited dream to have wings in picking him up.By what?! by wings?! what wings,dian?! what u have to pick him up?! thought my mind had broad jump.it doesnt make sense,baby...

The brunt of lonely life is having that fucking feelings. What should happen to have this? I even started to kill mine as i ever feel badly scarred for being disappointed. I know i might be not blame myself as the main subject here.the only action i should built was being goooooddd patient of God to wait our turn. yes, im a God's patient who needs major help in managing my heart and my life!

hehehee..

now, back to the case at the first paragraph..., i dooooo admire him for a sexy beard i guess hahahahha..sssttttt...(dont ever tell him), he would love to kick my ass by his light shoes hahahahhaha...dear, I cant stop laughing now..kwwaakakakakak..but it's tottally true that what makes my heart beating was his great perfomance and i found it growing nicely when he's good in religion i guess..

God, I know im not good as Your human but if i can ask more, would you give me a tough shoulder who can hug me as unperfect woman, hope the man you choose for me is a tough one who can be my leader for your hereafter.do hope he would be so kindly to help me in responsible my whole life..(Insyaallah) Amen,amen,amen.....

(19;21 wib..your secret admire)