Selasa, 17 Maret 2009
Kepada Hati..
Kenapa Tawa tetap tak sanggup membalut sepi
Kenapa suka tetap tak bergeming mengganti sunyi
Tapi sepi itu hanya untuk malam
Ketika aku sibuk bergelut dengan bayang
Bayang tak jelas, bayang tak berwujud
Siapa...entah!
Tapi sunyi itu hanya untuk kelam
Ketika aku tak henti bernafas dengan terjal
Terjal hati bercadas curam
Curam tajam, curam tak berbatas
Karena siapa...entah!
Ada nama tertambat di pinggir suram
Bukan satu, bukan dua...
Pun bukan seribu.
Pertanda memang tak jelas
atas nama siapa, untuk siapa dan karena siapa
Tapi bukankah itu yang membuat hati semakin terjal
Seperti benar tak berhati
Seperti benar tak mengerti
Atau mungkin sebenarnya aku berhati,
Tapi putus tak berjiwa..?
Entah..!
Cuma satu yang membalut disini,
SEPI..!
selasa,17 maret 2009, 21.39 wib
tidak untuk siapa2, hanya untuk hati..
Jumat, 27 Februari 2009
Am I happy?
I didnt know Elvis Presley much. But i started lately to adore him since i dropped by on his page in youtube and saw most the video of his. i spent all day by checking all about him. He looked so happy in running his romance through his marriage with Priscillia. Most photos reflected it. Kiss me quick, I'll remember you, my kiss were not cancelling my tear drops felt his sensuality movement. It's not the reason why i melt my tears seeing his perfomance.Due to his family's happiness, i took a pity on his broken marriage. Take good care of her is one of song of his which also make me wondering to know what really happened.But of course, it doesnt become public secret to know that he lived among glamorous,drugs and women.
Actually, these what i told above is not the point why i shared it on my blog. Something bleeding in my heart whenever i saw his broken family. How did divorce happen between a gorgeous couple like they both. Wealth,beauty,daughter,popularity are playing on their days. Could other reasons make they took decision to separate?? How?? Do the four things not effort him to keep the word named marriage? Well, marriage is not just word to say, and it's not just appointment among couple and God. More than these reasons, marriage is about responsibility to God and marriage it self. It looks so wonderful from long distance but hard to run. Then how's the little angel named kid? Would s/he reach happiness through their parents' failure?People only could stare at them by pity look.Do they become "a victim of marriage" or "product failure" of past time. Who can answer that questions??
Me! I can answer those question! due to my experiences that make me like what im now,i will tell you that marriage is not about consideration just. This the right reason why actually i spent my all days by watching elvis' life video. It reflected my self. We broke my daughter's dream by being bad parents step on the marriage stage.I my self even had been very carefully for not doing bad. Well, i dont say that what i did is tottally true, at least as unperfect woman i admit that i also become part of failure. But anyone here agree that a simple thing could easily break its holy marriage?Why being bad cooker would become the path to divorce?Open your eyes,men..This life is not only eating, and i dont need to spend my single minutes in the kitchen just for playing around with chicken, fish,meat, vegetables etc. I also would love to care my nails at least once in a month sitting for menicure and pedicure. Is it perfectly normal,men? come on,,u deserve to answer those represent the man who broke my life!
Elvis Presley, Priscillia, Lisa marie...are one of couples made my night being dehidration. Couldnt deal with this eyes to close at least 1 minute. I found many couple have same fate of mine, took decision in under the name of "happiness". Then, could you really feel the happiness after divorcing? If yes, you shouldnt being envy to other couple or etc. Who is definitely happy in the divorcing? you or your kids? Ask yourself as im asking my deep heart now. Am I happy with these all?
Just one thing i need to state : Forgive me to make you bottomless without him, my dear daughter...
plg,08.20 am
Actually, these what i told above is not the point why i shared it on my blog. Something bleeding in my heart whenever i saw his broken family. How did divorce happen between a gorgeous couple like they both. Wealth,beauty,daughter,popularity are playing on their days. Could other reasons make they took decision to separate?? How?? Do the four things not effort him to keep the word named marriage? Well, marriage is not just word to say, and it's not just appointment among couple and God. More than these reasons, marriage is about responsibility to God and marriage it self. It looks so wonderful from long distance but hard to run. Then how's the little angel named kid? Would s/he reach happiness through their parents' failure?People only could stare at them by pity look.Do they become "a victim of marriage" or "product failure" of past time. Who can answer that questions??
Me! I can answer those question! due to my experiences that make me like what im now,i will tell you that marriage is not about consideration just. This the right reason why actually i spent my all days by watching elvis' life video. It reflected my self. We broke my daughter's dream by being bad parents step on the marriage stage.I my self even had been very carefully for not doing bad. Well, i dont say that what i did is tottally true, at least as unperfect woman i admit that i also become part of failure. But anyone here agree that a simple thing could easily break its holy marriage?Why being bad cooker would become the path to divorce?Open your eyes,men..This life is not only eating, and i dont need to spend my single minutes in the kitchen just for playing around with chicken, fish,meat, vegetables etc. I also would love to care my nails at least once in a month sitting for menicure and pedicure. Is it perfectly normal,men? come on,,u deserve to answer those represent the man who broke my life!
Elvis Presley, Priscillia, Lisa marie...are one of couples made my night being dehidration. Couldnt deal with this eyes to close at least 1 minute. I found many couple have same fate of mine, took decision in under the name of "happiness". Then, could you really feel the happiness after divorcing? If yes, you shouldnt being envy to other couple or etc. Who is definitely happy in the divorcing? you or your kids? Ask yourself as im asking my deep heart now. Am I happy with these all?
Just one thing i need to state : Forgive me to make you bottomless without him, my dear daughter...
plg,08.20 am
Kamis, 26 Februari 2009
www.cumacintaonline.com
Aku mencintaimu, sumpah..!
Aku merindukanmu, sumpah..!
Kau bilang aku paling matang, sangat..
Kau bilang aku paling mengerti dirimu, sangat..
Kau bilang aku paling membuatmu tergila-gila, sangat..
Tapi tahukah kau sesungguhnya, amr..
Aku bukanlah wanita paling matang, untukmu..
Aku bukanlah wanita paling pengertian, untukmu..
Aku bukanlah wanita paling membuatmu tergila-gila, bagimu..
Kenapa??
Karena kau tidak nyata bagiku..
Karena kau tidak pasti bagiku..
Karena kau tidak mungkin bagiku..
Karena kau hanya cintaonline bagiku..
to:cintaonlineku
from.cintabiru
12.14 am
Aku merindukanmu, sumpah..!
Kau bilang aku paling matang, sangat..
Kau bilang aku paling mengerti dirimu, sangat..
Kau bilang aku paling membuatmu tergila-gila, sangat..
Tapi tahukah kau sesungguhnya, amr..
Aku bukanlah wanita paling matang, untukmu..
Aku bukanlah wanita paling pengertian, untukmu..
Aku bukanlah wanita paling membuatmu tergila-gila, bagimu..
Kenapa??
Karena kau tidak nyata bagiku..
Karena kau tidak pasti bagiku..
Karena kau tidak mungkin bagiku..
Karena kau hanya cintaonline bagiku..
to:cintaonlineku
from.cintabiru
12.14 am
Aku cemburu
Karena kamu belahan jiwaku
Aku cemburu
Karena aku mencintaimu
Aku cemburu
Karena nyawaku bersamamu
Tapi aku coba untuk mengerti
Kenapa kamu berpaling
Karena...
Siapa tahu aku juga akan terjebak pada situasi yang sama
Dimana aku melabuhkan sedikit relungku yg kosong
Pada seseorang yg tepat kusebut sebagai...
Selingkuhanku!
To: my ex affair,micle..
*inspired after reading www.selingkuh.blogspot.com
Karena kamu belahan jiwaku
Aku cemburu
Karena aku mencintaimu
Aku cemburu
Karena nyawaku bersamamu
Tapi aku coba untuk mengerti
Kenapa kamu berpaling
Karena...
Siapa tahu aku juga akan terjebak pada situasi yang sama
Dimana aku melabuhkan sedikit relungku yg kosong
Pada seseorang yg tepat kusebut sebagai...
Selingkuhanku!
To: my ex affair,micle..
*inspired after reading www.selingkuh.blogspot.com
Still...I hate you!
even i couldnt let my mind free not to think this hatred. Should I scream many times just want to say the world that i hate you AS? Huhh...really complicated to have such blind relationship. Im not having piles of words to represent how my hatred being a big mountain now. seem so hard to understand you and the way you act. You are more than a sun which is imposible to be hugged. Hot, big, shiny,high temperature! You are too proud of your shining..Im sure U will burn me by your heat and u let me die soon, no doubt!! Why you keep those pride. Or you really change your turn now?Im not knowing you deeply now for something differently happen on your act. I hate you and I should not keep my love to you as i did before. Yes, sure..I will wrap it kick it out! Never try to approach me by your shit sweet tongue.Now, you have known much that I do hate you..Be ready,... for i will close the gate of mine and lock it surely!
boring room,23.35
boring room,23.35
I hate you !
finally...! Im sick and tired of that fucking name. seems so silly to let him be around my mind. What a damn act i did! ive been in big trouble to know you more than i shouldnt do..so, let me send you my last warmest kiss, to say bye..
tiring thursday afternoon, my room : 15.23
AS
tiring thursday afternoon, my room : 15.23
AS
Senin, 23 Februari 2009
busy day, started by busy morning..helping my daughter prepared her school then accompanied my boss to campaign herself in Pegayut village. Yes, she is in strong struggle to have many "voice" in the election day to be a legislative candidate of DPR RI from our province. See, how the team attracted the massa by providing many souvenirs and promises. My job was just sitting act as a bodyguard of her, hahahha...However, wish her luck and be trusted by God to be one of Chalip to wealthen people around her.
Back home, sooooo weary..over slept, I even didnt reliaze that a wet kiss woke me up this afternoon. My cute daughter's red lips! She whispered some words i didnt really catch, but it was enough to make my weary eyes open .Time to pray brought us deeply to a holy moment. She stood besides me following my movement. What a wonderful face of my little lady when i saw her "sinking" in her doa. She closed the eyes while bowing her funny round head. Mashaallah,mashallah,mashaah...i even surprise seeing this moment. She grew up now and i almost didnt recognize her, my ghina...she is the only person who can weaken my hard heart and strengthen my weak days. She is like rubby, a wonderful jewelry of hayati. She's sleeping when i read about her now.. does she know tht im so proud of her?
Back home, sooooo weary..over slept, I even didnt reliaze that a wet kiss woke me up this afternoon. My cute daughter's red lips! She whispered some words i didnt really catch, but it was enough to make my weary eyes open .Time to pray brought us deeply to a holy moment. She stood besides me following my movement. What a wonderful face of my little lady when i saw her "sinking" in her doa. She closed the eyes while bowing her funny round head. Mashaallah,mashallah,mashaah...i even surprise seeing this moment. She grew up now and i almost didnt recognize her, my ghina...she is the only person who can weaken my hard heart and strengthen my weak days. She is like rubby, a wonderful jewelry of hayati. She's sleeping when i read about her now.. does she know tht im so proud of her?
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